"Every Life Deserves Hope"

I decided to run the 5K for Atlanta's AIDS walk on October 21st, 2007. If you want to donate money for this cause in my name, please go to my page.

Thank you!

Fiecare in parte

Uneori mi se pare ca fiecare viata de om e o mare tragedie, pentru ca se termina cu moartea. Nici o moarte nu mi se pare demna, frumoasa, sau dreapta.

Nu stiu. uneori asa ma pierd...

Kapitulation

I was very happy in Budapest this year. I felt free, I felt thin, I felt like I could do so many things... I spent the first day alone, because Michael's plane only came in later. I walked around, I went to the farmers' market in Buda and then drank coffee on a terrace while it was raining very hard. I looked at houses and imagined we would one day live there, have kids, a dog, and Stella in the window. We would have a tiny car and I would often take the train to go home and visit my family. We would learn Hungarian and feel at home.

Whenever it gets hard, I remember that feeling I had in Budapest and it kind of makes it all worth it. To help with that, I listen to the song that was on MTV Germany all the time in the hotel: Tocotronic - Kapitulation (Fuck it all).

To Do

Read at least four articles a week for my general exam. Run at least three times a week. Plan the lectures at least a week in advance. Wake up at least at 7:30 am. Don't eat after 6:00 pm. Do my neck exercises at least once a day. Submit at least two papers by the end of the semester.

My life has become this self-imposed checklist that I can't escape without guilt. This seems to be the most challenging semester for me so far. Ever. Like Yoshimi, I take lots of vitamins, but it doesn't seem to help yet.

But my question is






Is it worth it?

P.S. I just want to dance with them.